ponderthoughts

I have been thinking about something my mom said to me the other day. I don't remember the exact phrasing but it was like " I love how much you two love Lincoln. I've never heard you say anything like he's a burden. It must be because you are older, you guys appreciate him."

I loved hearing that. I love being his mom. I don't know if it's because I'm older, I would hope I would love and appreciate motherhood the same if I was 20, but I'll never know. It makes me spiral, * well would I still have linc, if we had had a baby sooner? would linc still have been first just sooner?or If we had started sooner, would we have stopped by 26 and never got our Lincoln!?* can't think like that, it's silly self talk.
I know there is a god, and he has me in mind. linc came to us when we needed him and wanted him. * bam here come my mommy tears* we love our family