4th of July!

I can't believe how fast a year has come and gone. I have been so nostalgic all day. I remember last year having the techs over for chili and cornbread; then we hurried out to watch a couple fireworks. Lincoln was so tiny, wearin his cute lil sailor outfit. he would kick his feet like a crazy boy when he saw the fire works.

He didn't see any this year. I'm actually quite disappointed.

I tried to get in the spirit! i painted my nails patriotically. 

I cooked hamburgers and bacon wrapped hotdogs. I made a massive amount of macaroni salad, though i knew only 2 and a 1/2 people would be eating it. and I even bought everything to make "firecracker cookies" but with all my efforts, I'm just sad. we didn't go out tonight, we didn't do any celebrating.  Kalob was home early enough but he is just not big on holidays. I think about my growing up and being so excited every holiday, because it meant we got to play with our cousins. lots and lots of family and food. Swimming and popsicles, gathering blankets and finding the best spot on the lawn for viewing the street show. 25-30 kids running around with sparklers coming dangerously close to setting each other ablaze. I feel sad Lincoln doesn't have anyone to play with. I feel like he's missing out on the excitement.

  we had Clint over for dinner at least.  All the reps went to a giant free firework show and concert in Philly, but kalob said he didn't want to go because of the baby. this is really the first time we've ever Not done something because of having a small child. We take him everywhere normally,,, I'm really bummed actually. I've never equated parenthood with missing out before. 

 I should suck it up and go finish those cookies. It's 9:40 at night, and I'm lying in bed pouting.